where life leads me to..

hey ya'll, its been a long long time since i updated here.
there are so so many thing that happen. some are explainable and some are not.
During this pass months,
i may did things that hurt the people around me and for that i sincerely ask for your forgiveness.
But during this time,
i met people from diff walk of life and this made me grow and have a mature thinking of what else to expect from the outside world.
its is unpredictable and there is no one you can believe.
they may say 1 thing now and say something else in another minute.
they never mean wat they say and this applies to your love ones telling you that they love you forever, pls dont be so naive and believe it.
they just say it cause that wat their are feeling for the mere moment.
it will change, it always does.
i guess this does not only apply to relationship but also in other stuff.
i promise myself not to trust anyone else but me and me only.
i'm currently very down and trying very hard to put on a fake smile for the people around me, but how long can i continue this.
i have no one to turn to, i only have my poor pillow to endure my tears.
how i wish u were here to lend me a shoulder like u say u would.
i wonder wat have i done to make u hate me so much.
everything i said is the truth n nothing but the truth.
there is no one else beside u, but wat the point now right..
u have already decide. so be it la.
i'll just have to endure the pain. i guess i'll take the tear n u take the smile. :)
i feel so lost, i'm gonna fall anytime soon n gonna hit myself hard.
i just wanna run away, someone pls help me.. i just wanna go some where all alone.. no one else but me..
i guess i'll do it tonight. just drive aimlessly..

good for health.

alright then.
bye