Deep In Thoughts..

I feel sad..

Sometimes i feel really lost..

Especially when i'm stress up with assignments n low on cash.

I mean i cant jus go open my mouth n ask from my parents cause they also have their needs n also stuff to be paid off.

eg: car, house, bills, insuranc n etc etc.

But at the same time i need money to live and i need money to eat n travel n also for assignments n also for my damn insurance.

But as a student, how can i juggle between assignments, work, classes, service hour *(thanks to damn scholarship) and also club activities??

God, i want things to be better... i cant stand living lik tis any longer..

i know ppl have life tat is worst than me and tat i may seem lik a spoiled brat blogging bout tis now. but i just wanna see a little light.. it is very very tough for me fo i have no one to tell cause they wont understand how i feel..

I dont wana ask for much la..

I just wan to get my license tat my parents had promise me since last year and i jus wan a car la.. a simple car so tat i dont have to depend on ppl.. it doesnt feel nice always asking ppl for transport especially when i say out of place.. wit a license n a car i too dont have to rely on stupid buses. so tat i will have more time to finish my assignment and also could go get a better job with a better pay..

i know i can live without all tis things la..

but it is very hard to not think of it when ppl aroud me get their cars and license straight out of school.. and even better they dont have to work their ass off but yet they still get cash..

gosh... y??

y do i have to work for everything??

y is everything so hard now???

y cant i jus live my life lik a normal student??

i dont mind not having a car.. but i jus dont wanna work.. it is very tiring to work n study at d same time..

mom dad, i'm sorry.. but i really wanna tell u tat it really hurt when u wan me to stay in damansara to work during my holidays.. y isit always bout working??

cant i jus have my holidays lik everyone else??

everytime u all ask me bout my pay i get very up set..

cause everytime i come back is cause i miss being wit the family n friends here..

but yet u always ask me y m i not working..

goshhh..

cant u understand tat i'm tired of working, n travelling and assignments n being alone at sis's place???

i just wanna be at home spent sometime wit u all an also spend some time in my room where i have my own space??

y isit tat everything tat i do dont seems to be enough for u??

it really hurt me all these while u know... i try my best to live on my own n not depend on u guys so much cause i know tat u have your problems too..

but y wat i did isnt enough??

last semester, i juggle 6 subjects tons of assignments, work, service hours, club activities n still score..

but not even a word of good job for 1 of u... :(

my course i dont have any exams, mostly are based on assignments which means i have to do my very best on every single piece.. n it takes time..

haiz.. i really dont know what to do any more..

i really want thing to be better la.. even jus a lil..

jus need a lil hope tat's all..

To ppl who read tis.. i'm sorry for the emoness..

~sherie~ *teary eye* ;(